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Odd, now I know that I am actually 'messaging in a bottle' as it were. Rich has sent me the communication. I am actually 'talking' to someone.
And please, if you are reading this and I've offended you personally in the past - I do apologize.
That said. Shall we continue?
I am alone. Mark has gone to the local lame pub for a pint with a south african friend.
I have just read 'cry, beloved country', and am now a bit more well-versed.
A geography does so mold you. A georgian is different from a north carolinian. I believe my sister would identify herself as a south carolinian, but I will have to ask her. An ibm/army brat is a different thing as well. There is camaraderie in both states.
It is funny that now that I know I am 'aboard', I feel a trifle shy.
Should I reveal that mark and I have had another of our 'check-in' talks? Shall I say what that means? Shall I say what we said?
I have a few more rings around my trunk.
"will you find me" by american music club.
Each halloween, your faces get more frightening. The closer I look, the more I can see your limits begin to show. The astronaut won first prize.
I saw 'closer' today with mark. Downer. So nichols. I love the depth I can have with this artist having seen 'who's afraid of virginia woolf'. Perhaps getting older, I have chosen to have my most lasting relationships with artists.
I noticed that I have two gray hairs.
I discovered my first gray hair at age 29 when I was living on henry street in cobble hill brooklyn. At that age, it was novel. shannon cannon had speckled gray hair. Evan was grey.
I noticed when greg was visiting us two weeks ago that he had gray hairs - more than 10.
I've lived with my two (maybe a third undiscovered one - I haven't obsessed gray hairs for a couple of weeks. I thought what an interesting harbinger.
Life? More of this ____ then gray and sag? Oy vey.
Sigh.
Tonight, I cobbled together some mercy pot, and have my ipod on... returned the phone calls and the e-mail... fire in fireplace... fog outside window... ipod on (currently 'here comes a regular' by the replacements)... outfit on... solitude adored.
Marriage strange.
Friends fabulous.
City strange.
Wilmington exists.
Whenever I'm faded or happy, I want to connect with people.
The more fire in them the more interesting.
Of course, no black holes in them - no interest.
Well hello.
I wonder who you are?
If you exist.
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