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Cootie Girl: how are your 2004 plans going?
2.25.2004
I promised myself on January 1 that this year I was not going to be bitter and jaded. I really didn't want to have another year go by where I get called asshole or mean eyes I wanted to change my attitude on the inside because I know that would then change my attitude on the outside. Where do I see myself today - today almost 2 months into the year? Not so much jaded but still very very bitter.
January was hard I spent most of that month fighting the cravings for drinks. I visited a few friends and babies, put down my knitting for a while to get back into some books, and kept myself occupied by tackling that project of cleaning out the 9-year-old boxes in the basement. I never got to my room and the pile of photos in the middle of the floor waiting to be sorted and placed in the empty albums that were purchased 3 years ago. I will get to that before my birthday. I will!
February I found myself breaking my no-drinking promise in Disney (I had to for the children's sake). For the most part, it was fun - I was very happy to get away even if it was only for 4 days. I come back from my trip only to go house/dog sit for my sister. Her house is a mess (her kitchen and basement are in the mist of renovations so her refrigerator was sitting in the dining room and she had no running water on the ground floor). OH and don't even get me started with her husband's best friend (Paul). This really annoyed me because if this schmuck had keys to the house why the hell was I there. I came home from work one day to find Paul passed out on the couch and the back door wide open which really pissed me off because the dog could have run away or even worse been hit by a car. Paul picked my sister and her family up from the airport (since he was also watching their car) and my brother in law drove him home but never came back to take me home. I had to shell out $40 to take a cab home because I wasn't going to brave the subways with my big suitcase. Oh and my cab driver turned out to be a Vietnam vet who is very racist - thanks sister. There is no way I would be house/dog sitting for her again.
IN other news - I had my review the other day (I cannot believe I have been employed for one year) and well I got a whopping 1.89% raise. Look out people - I'm rolling in the dough. I am a little worried because my company is going through many changes and even though I believe, our facility is safe (we have a 5-year contract there), I am not sure how the corporate changes will affect us. I am trying to get out of my current position and into something new because I am getting very bored with pushing papers all day I just need to be very careful that I don't move myself into a position that gets me pushed out of a job.
With my big money windfall I decided to do my taxes and it turns out that I am only getting back about $600 but I have to pay the state $8 - WTF! I was screwed by that freelance job I had in the beginning of the year - they never took taxes out of my checks. I was hoping for a return in the few thousand range so I can put it towards my home-to-be savings. With my big tax return and even bigger raise, it looks like I will have enough money by 2006 to buy that home (only 2 years behind schedule). Do you think any of this explains why I am so bitter?
I drank 5 days in the last 55 (4 of those days were in Disney - I was allowed). I am still planning to stay dry until May 1st however, the keeping dry has put a damper on my going out (most of my friends are not big drinkers - I hate having a group of people at a bar if all of us are drinking cokes). The only thing I have been doing to keep myself sane is visit my happy place - Dok Suni - at least once a week. I am trying to get people out to some comedy shows since I haven't done that in a while. Just last week a few of us went to see soundtracks live "Pretty in Pink" - everyone should try and see this show at least once. They take film soundtracks and perform them live while acting out snippets of the movie in between songs. Very funny stuff especially Zak Orth who takes his characters to heart. He played both Steff (James Spader in Pretty in Pink) and Damone (Robert Romanus in Fast Times at Ridgemont High) and just nailed the parts (voice and all). He was wicked funny. Where the hell did that come from? I'm not from Boston. I must be tired ... all this bitterness is wearing me out. Night kids.
