Nutshell Kingdom: The Giantest Crush
2003
I have gotten the giantest crush on the world lately. I don't know, it's just, y'know, just that, i don't know, the world, there's something there. You don't find it everywhere. The world just seems so open and all-encompassing and I feel so little and alienated. Maybe that's it. It's one of those grass is always greener syndromes. I don't really think the world would let me be a big part of its life. Not for a moment. I'm not stupid. It's just that, well if only it would come back to me with a little sliver of concern or affection, even a joke. Any kind of relationship would make me the happiest boy around. Can you imagine? To have the world smile at you. I guess you don't see it the way I do. There's just something about the world and if I don't act on this huge (and I mean huge) crush I've developed, I will never be able to look at myself in the mirror again.
