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Pony: like bookends
5.16.2001
I finally called Christine last night. It's weird, cuz she used to be my 'best friend', but we have not spoken for over a year.
It's a cliche to say so, but it was like no time had passed. You know, it is OK to let friendships go for a little while. We use terms like "best friend" and "oldest friend" as if we need to build a fence around our friendships or make them adhere to a list.
I used to be so paranoid when friends would drift. I would take it personally and secretly hate them. But now I think that friendships are fluid. (and this is a very new realization). Besides, sometimes you don't want to and other times you simply can't take people with you.
She has a gorgeous, huge brain. As a teenager I had never experienced anything like the conversations we used to have. You know how some people can make you feel like you are at your smartest and wisest?
She was so shy, and I, in reaction, was gregarious. I guess I put her on a pedestal at some point. She helped me know what to look for in people. And I am so grateful for that.
But last night it was not about comparing places in life or being stunned y how different from each other we have become (and arguably always were).
When we spoke, all I could think was: "Girl, we were pretentious teens together." Let's raise a glass to that.
